Today I love you more than any other days. Not that you’ve done something special today.. Just feeling more loved because of the things I’ve thought of today.
I’ve thought through a lot about us. It gave me mixed feelings about it. I have absolutely no idea if we are able to get through the days when you’re at US. You will be there forever and I’ll have to give up everything here — that is if everything goes smoothly. There’s just one thing that’s bothering me. Our career might force us to go separate ways because of the time difference, and soon your mind will be shaped by their culture and we might not be able to understand each other… It hurts me every single time I think of you leaving here, but I know I can’t be selfish and be mad at you because I know this is the best for you.
How does it feel like to be with me? Tiring isn’t it? You alone played a few roles in my life. A best friend, a boyfriend, a doctor, a teacher and the list just goes on. But wow you’re awesome, you survived and stayed through with me for the past two years plus. You leaving here means a big part of me will be gone. You know that right?? You’re the only person that understands me inside out, love me even when you got to know a disgusting side of me.
What more can I expect from you? Nothing. You’re awesome. But anyway, thanks for squeezing some time out for me despite your busy schedule. Lol ain’t bring sarcastic, seriously being sincere here. You’re always so busy, and I honestly hate it la… Sometimes I just wanna say, eh chill the fuck out, old soul. But I can’t complain or be angry at you because there’s nothing wrong with you being super busy with your stuff. You’re always telling me to keep myself busy so I won’t feel lonely. I did. I did so much, I worked, I studied, I exercised, I spent time with my friends and family but….. Honestly??? No matter how busy I am, I can never be busier than you.
Just vomiting my random thoughts out yeah love you bye axe oh axe oh~~